An Extremely Sensitive Soul

 

It is so easy to let life overwhelm you. I don’t have a lot in my life to stress, upset or even anger me. I certainly haven’t been through hugely traumatic events or disasters that would warrant an overly anxious reaction. Lord willing, this will continue.  Yet, somehow I feel totally overwhelmed sometimes. Stressed beyond belief. Worried about EVERYTHING. Life. Kids. Husband. Pets. Work. Spiritual Growth. Witness. Homeschooling. Finances. Terrorism. Politics. Family. Extended Family. Friends. Weather, yes WEATHER…

I feel like crawling into bed, turning Netflix on and watching Gilmore Girls, ALL DAY…

Then I feel guilty for even thinking that.

I feel – like I achieve NOTHING.

I struggle and feel guilty – for being a stay at home Mom…when I am.

I struggle and feel guilty – for working part time… when I do.

I feel guilty – for going to the gym TWICE a week and not being with the kids for 3 hours.

I feel guilty – for NOT going to the gym MORE.

I worry and I am guilty – for not being the wife and mother that I wanted to be when I was 11 years old.

I worry about and fear – sickness and worse…

I worry about and fear – the tragedies that are going on around the world.

All of these things creep up on me, build up… weigh my heart down.

I need to PRAY more.  Read my Bible more. Build up mine and my family’s relationship with Jesus.  Ask Him to carry the burden.

I need to DO more.  Play more with my kids.  Laugh more with my family.  Share more with my friends.  Help whoever I am able, whenever I am able.

I need to COPE better.  I LET things overwhelm me.  I ALLOW thoughts to enter my head and then dwell on them. This needs to STOP.

I read articles in the paper, on social media, here in the blogging world and I cry… I need to be aware of what’s going on in the world – but somehow in a way that doesn’t hurt ME… like it does.  It needs to produce a different reaction in me.

I need to be aware that God has created me to be an extremely sensitive soul.   This means I feel strongly.  Joy. Love. Fear. Sadness. Hope. Despair.  They stay with me.  They encompass me.

This is not always a bad thing, even though that’s how I have portrayed it so far…

Meeting my husband, our blossoming relationship and eventually marriage has brought me pure JOY.  He is my rock and I am so grateful that God brought me “the boy next door.”

Our children have made me understand LOVE.  I am fairly certain that the first time I saw both my son and my daughter that my already full heart “grew three sizes that day.”  Who knew it could?!  They are my world.

I feel so honored to have the life, the family, the friends and the faith that God has blessed me with.

I hope that in posting this I am not stressing you more, but allowing you (and myself) to see HOPE.  Anxiety is most likely in your life, in one form or another.  You may feel, like I do, that it doesn’t seem warranted in your life, and not understand it fully.  Or you may be experiencing anxiety on a totally different level that I won’t pretend to even begin to understand.  Whatever the case, healing begins with talking and sharing.  We can’t hold everything in forever.  It builds. It festers. It’s not good.

Let your burdens go…

“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”  Matthew 11:28

“Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the Lord.”  Psalm 31:24

“Who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.”  2 Corinthians 1:4

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28 Comments Add yours

  1. autistsix says:

    Faith and laughter are great allies in the battle against anxiety but although we can win each battle the war goes on. Focus on the ground won and making things better for the next generation. Bless you πŸ™‚

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    1. Thank you. Blessings in your journey as well. 😊 xx

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  2. A beautiful honest post. We all go through this at times and the change of weather doesnt help. I offer a few thoughts and rountines.

    1) always meditate /pray connect to the divine daily… without fail.

    2) always fill yourself with positivity everyday without fail
    3) be a peaceful person and share peace and positivity regardless of whats going on. daily
    4) see whats going on in the world as a sign to step up your spiritual practises, share beauty, harmony and peace to yourself , family and world.
    5) we are powerful immortal souls that can create a wave of peace throught out the world if we want to. We need to share positivity always then positivity and peace will spread. If we shate fear and negativity then the air is filled with that.

    Be the change you want to see in the world..gandhi.

    Be the peace the harmony etc you want to see the world..

    We can create peace in the world and harmony…

    I wrote a post on image … then tolerance and today instruments of peace .. just thus week .. you might like..

    Play beautiful uplifting songs and remember the divine and share his beauty.

    I know easier said then done when one feel gloomy…but it is doeable.. believe and make happen .

    Have a beautiful day

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    1. Thank you. There’s a lot to take in from your lovely comment. God bless. xx

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  3. Such a beautiful and relatable post…thank you for sharing your heart and generosity of spirit…you are a blessing πŸ™‚

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    1. Thank you, for reading and for commenting! I’m so glad you enjoyed it and were able to relate. ❀ xx

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  4. free2bme27 says:

    You’ve put into words how many women feel.

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    1. Good to know I’m not the only one… 😊 thanks for the support. c

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  5. Homemakersunited says:

    Don’t feel bad, I at times suffer from anxiety too.

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  6. Right on. Thank you for such a great post. Be Blessed even more.

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    1. Thank you. God bless. ❀

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  7. judyjourneys says:

    I give you this poem by Anonymous:
    God has not promised skies always blue,
    Flower-strewn pathways all our lives through,
    God has not promised sun without rain,
    Joy without sorrow, peace without pain,
    But God has promised strength for the day,
    Rest for the labor, Light for the way,
    Grace for the trials, Help from above,
    Unfailing sympathy, Undying love.
    God has not promised we shall not know
    Toil and temptation, trouble and woe.
    He has not told us we shall not bear
    Many a burden, many a care
    But God has promised strength for the day
    Rest for the labor, light for the way
    Grace for the trials, help from above
    Unfailing sympathy, undying love.

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    1. Wow, that is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing, Judy. I absolutely love it, and so needed it. ❀

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  8. Hi :). This article was nice for me to read at this time. I am always telling people to love themselves- and who cares-and you’re beautiful- and I mean it, but I don’t often take my own advice. I am going to work on that. πŸ™‚ Oh, I wanted to say that I think it’s woooooooooooooooooooooooooonderful that you home school and are a stay at home mom. As a child, I think I would have loved that. My mom wasn’t, but she’s still wonderful in her way. I think we forget that even if one person out of 100, let’s say, likes your pumpkin pie that that pie isn’t important, but it is! Because everyone matters, even if it’s one person. Also, I would watch only what brings you joy.<3

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    1. Oh thank you, sweetie! You are super sweet and so encouraging. I do love my life and everything God has given me but for some reason the little things just build up as weigh me down sometimes. You are so right, I should just watch and read what brings me joy. Need to filter out some of the nastiness. And I can always head to your blog to find my happy place. 😊 Thanks so much for your lovely comment. p.s. You should totally start taking your own advice, it’s awesome! πŸ˜‰ xx ❀❀

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      1. Yay! So glad you like my comment and my blog πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ And I know what you mean πŸ™‚ ❀

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  9. Your thoughts echo my own. Thank you for your honesty and positivity. πŸ™‚

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    1. Thank you for reading and commenting! Keep on keeping on. God bless. xx

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  10. Sparkyjen says:

    What blesses us most in this life is one of the greatest gifts God has bestowed upon us…the power to choose! Once you feel how heavy it is to carry a burden, you can choose to lighten this load, and feel lighter. You can choose to absorb the worries of life, or you can choose to let them go, and feel better. We have the power. It’s always there. If not, we have to ask ourselves…what keeps us from it? What are we getting by holding on? Are we brave enough to let go, and see how this feels? Worry is not the gift.

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    1. So true, and you make it sound so easy. The worries and doubts bring us closer to Jesus as well, it’s a time to draw nearer to Him and allow Him to carry the burden. It may not go away, but it can certainly be lightened as you say. ❀

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  11. I really enjoyed reading this post and praise God for your transparency! It’s RealBoldTruth in its finest! I think we are all concerned about every single issue you mentioned here, especially us gals!☺️ But balance is critical or insanity is sure to come. If we dwell on matters we have no control over for too long, how unproductive we become for ourselves, loved ones and for Christ. Getting a prayer partner helps a lot. I minimize the amount of TV I watch and flood my ears with the word by listening to messages from Joel Osteen, TD Jakes or Joyce Meyer. They always have messages for matters like this and help renew my spirit. For those of us who suffer from depression, anxiety or other mental conditions, the most appropriate medication is the word of God by any means necessary!!! Going to sleep sometimes I put on my ear buds and listen to affirmations until my brain quiets down. Maybe extreme, but it works! Thanks for visiting my blog and for the follow! Blessings!πŸ˜‡

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    1. Love this comment. Thank you so much for taking the time to say hello. Sounds like you are taking the right steps in order to keep that balance. God bless. xx ❀

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      1. Absolutely! Stay blessed my friend!

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  12. Invisibly Me says:

    A wonderful post. Very uplifting and a positive reminder to let go of burdens and remember to have hope.x

    http://www.invisiblyme.com

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  13. Leen says:

    This is such an inspiring post. Have hope, have hope.
    -Stay awesome

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